I'm Back to Where I Start

My mistake. I'm back to the way I am. Thought I can be strong enough to overcome you. But i can't. I still not brave enough to play with fire. I crazy of u before, can't afford to crazy again.Thought of i can stop blogging about you. Crap...is all you again.

Start from friend but not for me. I'm scare. Sorry. It not just the matter we can be natural or not. It just way too pain for me to stay as friend where once we are not.

"If i can't forget you, i should had make you forget me".. this is how the story should end.

Consolation Prize

When is not the first prize, should be glad at least you get the consolation prize. There still a lot of people din't even get a damn.
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Wakeup today, yesterday seem like a sour dream. I realize that i'm not the one who write the story. I'm just the actor, should say a pedestrian that walk by in the backdrop of the movie. No purpose, no meaning, no feeling. It just part of the job to walk pass and make the movie look nicer.

Consolation Prize, is how to make me feel better. Just to replace something that been owing me since years ago. I been wished for this day where i can at least get a consolation prize, but only realize that is not that happy as i thought. It just dig out all the feeling inside me again after 4 years. The pain at the moment u leave me, i hate this feeling. I used so many years to make me feel better, but now all refresh again. Need how many years for me to feel better again?another 4 years?

Should i be glad for it? I hope I can. Maybe is easy for her, but not for me.

Sorry. I dunno how to reply you.

The Date

Finally, after 4yrs of waiting...finally go out have a date with her...^^...

A Chinese Ghost Story at GSC Tropicana City Mall

the night before, i insomia bcos of this date...slip at 4am wakeup at 10am...

rush for breakfast n rush to tropicana city mall to bought d ticket(cos i wan couple seat..buy on d spot sure cant get)

den rush to usj to fetch her...

but plan ruined when she dowan eat at cafe indulge...changed to kimchiharu...

disaster happen when d food not nice...damn...i should had think it earlier...she like to eat korean food...means possibility of she will dont like the food if nt nice enuf is high...

so thx to marufuku to screw up d lunch plan...

after that is way too early for our movie on 5pm...she dowan go walk..so...d place nearest is my sis house...

omg...my sis was nt at home when go der...gosh...

1 guy 1 gal in a house...im so paiseh to even talk..topicless..FML...

but she was so tired...fall asleep der...

im so happy to c her sleep at der...been sometime...since...2009...>.<...

feel lik wan to hug her closer..but nt dare...cos v nt lik lastime anymore...bt happy to c her sleep bside me...

i ask her...r v rlly cant 2gther anymore...she say"IMPOSSIBLE"..sobx...

after that when for d movie at tropicana city mall...FML again...

da movie was nt tat nice...

n d thng said in d movie kena few stabs on me...

"if i cant 4get her..make her 4get me"...shit...im d one cant 4get her after so many years...she d one wan me 4get bout her...

"human n ghost can't b 2gther"...OMG...me n her...she was da angel...im da demon le...>.<..

n we r sitting in the couple seat like two normal fren...= ="

Another plan ruined...FML...haha...

after movie...we keep argue on how big size my sis baby...i say it vry big..she say impossible...so..we go my sis house again to c d baby...

c her hug d baby n tam d baby...ok...i melted...melt like melting ice cream under 100 Celsius...

sobx...why v r nt couple anymore? tis is da moment i been dreaming of(if da baby is mine..haha)

she like d baby vry much~~bt truth is..tong tong rlly vry cute...haha...

see her so happy playing with da baby...is killing me...

after that bring her to dinner...but...had no idea what to eat anymore...dont feel lik bring her to those cheap place..

bt...end up piccadily again...d place i hang d most..

bt can see that she nt rlly enjoy it...FML again....wat a stupid plan...

end up...finish dinner fetch her bec to usj...tat all....

how also...rlly appreciate d time with her...been so long...

tat time when v r still 2gther..always dint have chance to go out for movie...or have a meal...

finally tis time all had done..just...worst plan ever...gosh...

rlly miss today...hope gt chance to go out with her again...

bt..can tat time v r couple again?

gt ask her y she breakup with her previous bf...n ask her izzit gt like another guy d....

she dowan answer me...i think shud have...

n she dowan tell me what type of guy she like...bt...i think nt me anymore...

nvm...i still wait...wait til she like me again...

i still can rmb when we start tat time is 23 July 2006...so long ago....

miss her so much....>.<

肆的故事

Tis post is dedicated  to my dear...so...i write in chinese..u man man translate when c it ya..wahahaha...

dear & dear..= ="

壹, 弍, 叁, 肆, 伍, 陆.....

肆..为何是肆呢, 因为她是我第肆个追的女生..也是我在ucsi短短一年里认识的一位好友..

有心事找她..有开心事也可找她..就是一个肯废那几个钟听我唠叨的好朋友..

虽然她傻脑傻脑的..该说是没脑比较恰当...但也是个很好很好的伴..

很多时候烦恼缠着我时..就不知不觉的想打给她..虽是没什么帮助..但也唯有她肯接我电话吧..

那为何称呼她dear呢..我也不知其原因了...

如今她可是个有夫之妇了...也不好意识常打扰啦..要对你的"外遇"好些...哈...

但还是想说句."谢谢你"....

Und wat i write?haha...

man man translate la...:P...

*ps: MIA if c tis pls dont kill me...lol...

New House~New Dream~New Me~

I'm moving again~~from menara alpha - pv3 - damansara bistari - pv10 and NOW~~Mutiara Gombak 1~~
is a double storey link house...
here is it~~

nice? im kidding...tis 1 is mutiara gombak 2..mine is bside...

Yea~tis is mine~

me with my bunch of brother had rent this..jz a few km from our current house..

n we will be moving in on May~~

happy~~

thinking to buy some furniture..but our budget nt allow us to..

so will make it simple at 1st..

but we are going to organize some moving in BBQ party~~haha...

any1 wanted to come visit us?

I'm Back

Back to my blogging world..from Wretch till now..all start 4 years ago...start on the time i breakup..the story was all about love..
tat gal, tat she, tat her...

But no more these shit!
There still lot of fun out there...i have my brother that support me from time to time...
i have my job to do...i have my family to take care...
so...i wont ruins my life bcos of her...

n there are lot lot of gals outside...damn it...i gonna get 1 sooner or later...but money come 1st la..i damn need money...

So i'm back...no more geli geli mia post..is time to change!!!haha...